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I don't really understand it.


Why I keep going.


I look around, what do I see?


I get up in the morning and lace up my boots. I go to work, do what I can to complete my tasks to the best of my ability, go home, play a few games, go to bed, and repeat the cycle.


Now, this seems pretty normal, however looking at the background is where I have the problem.

I am an overweight nineteen year old, I still live with my parents and work for my father. Growing up I never received much in the way of time with my father, him being a workaholic and an alcoholic. However I always ended up going to work with him, sometimes it was my choice, others it wasn't. He established a background in my mind that a man has to work. Which I won't argue is a good thing. However it's about all I truly learned from my old man. Sure, fishing, a bit of plumbing and heating, but... There wasn't much of anything else, and again, though it wasn't a bad thing, everything had to do with work.


Now my mother... Well... I'm afraid that side's even worse. My mother and my father split when I was about five, when I was about eight she ended up with an abusive boyfriend who prevented me from being able to spend much time with my mother. Then again, also not necessarily a bad thing. My mother is mentally unstable and has a strong need for having someone in her life otherwise she crumbles. Add on her being an alcoholic and changing over to a welfare bum, and well, yeah. On the plus side she's given up drinking.


On the other hand, my step mother.... Where to begin.... Well. I suppose we start with the hard facts. She basically hates me. Not just on principle mind you, she has her own, subconscious, reasons, the largest part of which is jealousy. Did I mention I didn't get much time with my father? Well, the small amounts of time that I was able to get with my father, (Most of which was just working with him mind you.) She envied the 'quality time' I got with my father, and I bore the brunt of that jealousy and the anger and resentment that it bore. Granted my father has shared his brunt of it, but it's been difficult. Having a 'mother figure' who resents you? Not to mention who doesn't care about most of what you do?


And I can't forget to add onto this list the great number of bullies I was subject to throughout my school years. From kindergarten up until High School. I was picked on, teased, called names, people destroyed my stuff, and on a few occasions physically assaulted me for no reason. Including one specific incident in which my sister got me to go to a playground simply for me to get ambushed and beat up during middle school.


Then High School came around.


And things actually started to look a little better, I joined the football team, did JROTC, got involved in a few after school activities, and actually started to have a bit of a better time with life, my father and stepmother being especially encouraging with Football and JROTC. However when it came to things like visiting friends, hanging out in town, going to dances, that sort of stuff, I never seemed to be able to scrounge up a ride, my father always working, and me and my stepmother coming into much worse terms than ever before, a number of verbal and on occasion physical altercations.


And now, a year and a half after graduating High School, I'm looking at a lack of medical insurance, basically no way to even try to get to college, one attempt at working at something other than for my father, which worked out alright but came down to me doing well enough at it, I have a bad back that's most likely a combination of my weight, football, working too hard, and stress from thinking about not being up to par with my father's expectations.


Oh yeah. I forgot about that.


My father is probably the biggest name in the heating and plumbing business in the Bangor Maine area. And I'm not stacking up to be much in comparison to where he's at. Oliver’s Heating & Plumbing, look us up, we’re online and on Facebook.


But add all this up on top of the housing market, looking at trying to even think about getting an apartment, $750/m on the low side? It's insane to even think about trying to move out on my own. Taking into consideration what I make a month, $1200 a month, subtract out $750. That would leave me with $450, tack on my insurance, teenage male, one accident, no tickets, paying $160 right now under my parents auto insurance plan. That's down to $290. Add in fuel, which is relatively low right now, but it's still $50 a week to run my truck, $200 a month. would leave me with $90. And we haven't even gotten into a grocery bill, trying to save any money, or putting anything into entertainment.


So looking at getting anywhere is going nowhere fast.


How about schooling? Well, with the student loan business being a heaping pile of bullshit I'd have to put myself in debt up to my earlobes to get even a basic two year degree, and then for me to struggle to find a job that would pay me enough for me to A: Pay off student loans, B: Rent a place to live, C: Have a vehicle to get to and from work, D: Actually be able to afford to buy groceries and a little bit of entertainment.


So at this point it's a game of chance. I could continue on working for my father, maybe getting to the point where I'd be experienced enough in the field, or maybe take over the office and run that for him, and try and get a better paycheck, or maybe I could find a job elsewhere and do well enough there to progress up the corporate ladder. However that's doubtful because everywhere that's hiring right now isn't looking for some high school kid with minimal experience in anything. Every business out there is looking for someone with at least a two year degree or two years of relevant experience.


And you know? At this point, I guess I really don't fucking understand why I keep getting up and putting my boots on in the morning. Other than because I don't have anything fucking better to do.


Have a nice day.


  • Mood: Frustrated
Is like a year without any news.

Hey everyone that might remember me. xP It's been a while, well. A year, over a year. Yeah.
It's been a while. ANYWAYS. So, for the past year I've done plumbing and heating with my father, but as of three days ago I started a new job as a salesman for UNA innovations here in Bangor Maine. Though I enjoyed some aspects of plumbing and heating others I definitely disliked. I won't go into details because they can get quite... messy. Anyhow, I'm currently selling DirecTV, a massive company that offers satellite television all over the world. Offering quality service for quality prices.

Anyhow, that's my 14 month update for DA.

Have a good one everybody, hopefully I'll stay a bit more active from now on.
  • Mood: Tired
Beware traveler,
And be fair.

Listen to my call,
Save yourself a watery fall.

Follow the roads,
Listen not to the songs of toads.

If along the the water's edge you must go,
Beware the wisp of Will'o.

Look into the mist,
And you may see Will'o the wisp.

Follow him not,
Else you'll be left distraught.

For if you wander,
You'll be left to ponder.

With all you might,
To chase after a fleeting light.
Will'o Wisp
Beware beware... Don't go chasing lights at night if a lonesome road you do travel.
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My name is Dempsey Oliver. I love to Role play, write, and take photo's. I'm currently in high school. I play American Football and I'm an avid chess player and fisherman. I love listening to music, especially TwoStepsFromHell. I aim to join the Military after high school.


Current Residence: Clifton, ME
Favourite genre of music: Classical, Country, Metal, Classic Rock
Operating System: Windows 7
Favourite cartoon character: Elmer Fud
Personal Quote: Victory and Defeat are both a state of mind.
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I don't really understand it.


Why I keep going.


I look around, what do I see?


I get up in the morning and lace up my boots. I go to work, do what I can to complete my tasks to the best of my ability, go home, play a few games, go to bed, and repeat the cycle.


Now, this seems pretty normal, however looking at the background is where I have the problem.

I am an overweight nineteen year old, I still live with my parents and work for my father. Growing up I never received much in the way of time with my father, him being a workaholic and an alcoholic. However I always ended up going to work with him, sometimes it was my choice, others it wasn't. He established a background in my mind that a man has to work. Which I won't argue is a good thing. However it's about all I truly learned from my old man. Sure, fishing, a bit of plumbing and heating, but... There wasn't much of anything else, and again, though it wasn't a bad thing, everything had to do with work.


Now my mother... Well... I'm afraid that side's even worse. My mother and my father split when I was about five, when I was about eight she ended up with an abusive boyfriend who prevented me from being able to spend much time with my mother. Then again, also not necessarily a bad thing. My mother is mentally unstable and has a strong need for having someone in her life otherwise she crumbles. Add on her being an alcoholic and changing over to a welfare bum, and well, yeah. On the plus side she's given up drinking.


On the other hand, my step mother.... Where to begin.... Well. I suppose we start with the hard facts. She basically hates me. Not just on principle mind you, she has her own, subconscious, reasons, the largest part of which is jealousy. Did I mention I didn't get much time with my father? Well, the small amounts of time that I was able to get with my father, (Most of which was just working with him mind you.) She envied the 'quality time' I got with my father, and I bore the brunt of that jealousy and the anger and resentment that it bore. Granted my father has shared his brunt of it, but it's been difficult. Having a 'mother figure' who resents you? Not to mention who doesn't care about most of what you do?


And I can't forget to add onto this list the great number of bullies I was subject to throughout my school years. From kindergarten up until High School. I was picked on, teased, called names, people destroyed my stuff, and on a few occasions physically assaulted me for no reason. Including one specific incident in which my sister got me to go to a playground simply for me to get ambushed and beat up during middle school.


Then High School came around.


And things actually started to look a little better, I joined the football team, did JROTC, got involved in a few after school activities, and actually started to have a bit of a better time with life, my father and stepmother being especially encouraging with Football and JROTC. However when it came to things like visiting friends, hanging out in town, going to dances, that sort of stuff, I never seemed to be able to scrounge up a ride, my father always working, and me and my stepmother coming into much worse terms than ever before, a number of verbal and on occasion physical altercations.


And now, a year and a half after graduating High School, I'm looking at a lack of medical insurance, basically no way to even try to get to college, one attempt at working at something other than for my father, which worked out alright but came down to me doing well enough at it, I have a bad back that's most likely a combination of my weight, football, working too hard, and stress from thinking about not being up to par with my father's expectations.


Oh yeah. I forgot about that.


My father is probably the biggest name in the heating and plumbing business in the Bangor Maine area. And I'm not stacking up to be much in comparison to where he's at. Oliver’s Heating & Plumbing, look us up, we’re online and on Facebook.


But add all this up on top of the housing market, looking at trying to even think about getting an apartment, $750/m on the low side? It's insane to even think about trying to move out on my own. Taking into consideration what I make a month, $1200 a month, subtract out $750. That would leave me with $450, tack on my insurance, teenage male, one accident, no tickets, paying $160 right now under my parents auto insurance plan. That's down to $290. Add in fuel, which is relatively low right now, but it's still $50 a week to run my truck, $200 a month. would leave me with $90. And we haven't even gotten into a grocery bill, trying to save any money, or putting anything into entertainment.


So looking at getting anywhere is going nowhere fast.


How about schooling? Well, with the student loan business being a heaping pile of bullshit I'd have to put myself in debt up to my earlobes to get even a basic two year degree, and then for me to struggle to find a job that would pay me enough for me to A: Pay off student loans, B: Rent a place to live, C: Have a vehicle to get to and from work, D: Actually be able to afford to buy groceries and a little bit of entertainment.


So at this point it's a game of chance. I could continue on working for my father, maybe getting to the point where I'd be experienced enough in the field, or maybe take over the office and run that for him, and try and get a better paycheck, or maybe I could find a job elsewhere and do well enough there to progress up the corporate ladder. However that's doubtful because everywhere that's hiring right now isn't looking for some high school kid with minimal experience in anything. Every business out there is looking for someone with at least a two year degree or two years of relevant experience.


And you know? At this point, I guess I really don't fucking understand why I keep getting up and putting my boots on in the morning. Other than because I don't have anything fucking better to do.


Have a nice day.


  • Mood: Frustrated

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masterlevan1 Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2014  Student Writer
Wow!!!! You didn't have to donate points to me, bud! Thank you so much! That is very nice of you, seriously. I didn't expect something like that. I'm speechless :hug:
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Bloodrebel Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Don't worry about it Honestly, It was a Random Act of Kindness, enjoy it and perhaps pass it on one day soon~
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masterlevan1 Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2014  Student Writer
Aww well thanks again :hug: 
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Of course~
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Hello there! Thank you for joining :iconnurturing-narratives: :dummy: Great to have you with us :) Welcome!
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Why hello! It is a pleasure to have joined a group that seems to have a decent community and I hope to perhaps make a few new friends and find a good read or two!
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^^
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Happy Birthday!
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Thanks man!
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